I dont think you noticed

that you're on my mind every single day.
that I secretly spell your name out in the skies

I saw you today, only to feel invisible
Because I didnt think you noticed me
I dont think you noticed.

I've seen hearts scarred. They told the truth only to find bad news.
I can hold it in. The truth. But I'm scared to wait longer.
I dont want to tell and lose you a second later.
But I dont want to tell. Period.
At least not now.

Honestly, I still care about what people would think.
As much as I hate to admit it. I still do.
I've never been here. And I dont know much.

And I am way too scared of figuring out.

dog talk

I've always dreamed of having a Siberian Husky. I actually had it all planned out. Once I'm a successful zoological vet, I'd get myself a Sibe Husky and travel around the world with him.

It just sucks all kinds of existing balls that I live in a place with such tropical and humid climate! Now, how is my future husky gona live?? He needs snow to play in! All spitz need snow, dammit.I love spitz of all breeds. Siberian Husky of all spitz! You would say, "Okay, okay, you love sibe huskies, I get it. But what if you cant have one, what would you settle with?"

Other spitz I lo0o0ove...
I know they look pretty much the same to you. But believe me, they're not. One is way more intelligent than the other. One is bigger and the other is smaller. One is friendlier, the other is shy or well, fierce. But they all dislike smaller animals. So cute! xD

I'd usually prefer less furry dogs, but I fell in love with this Japanese Spitz. Just look at it!
Doesnt he look so much like a Polar Bear ? x) Click this link and I promise you no regrets: http://www.dailypuppy.com/puppies/wilson-the-japanese-spitz_2008-04-01

We all know, once she started, there aint no stopping...Ray and her apek accent!

We were in the Bio lab. Getting bored listening to the teacher explain about passive movements (?). So we flipped the pages of the textbook. Ray saw a picture of Dolly, the first cloned sheep.

Ray: Haiyo! Dolly.. Dolly the clone sheep, oh!
Me: Die ready ah!
Ray: Haiyo! You stupik girl!

There is not a day when you dont hear "Haiyo! You stupik girl!"

It's gona be a bright bright bright sunshiny day!

Okay, so I guess today's one of my happy-go-sing day. No, no, its not happy-go-lucky. Nothing lucky-ish happened, I just kept singing every song I listen to. Just...thank God I got out of the car before friggin Miley started conquering the radio with her fly. Uselessness. Just like V Hudgens. Man, these girls are contaminating the world with their hypocrisy. Dont like what I'm saying? Get out of my blog! Like I car if you dont read it :P

Anyhoots! This was so random. I was gona tell the world about my Littleninja pet on Facebook. But I got carried away with the song.

My singing suck pretty dolls heads, I dont care. Dont judge me. Only God can. I'm just so happy whenever I listen to this song :D and so...I sing along!

1 minute after recording the video above: Mom and dad got home. I was still singing it when I went to the kitchen. Then, dad told me to look for the chords online. I did and he started playing the guitar for me. Yayyy!

admit it

one kick ass song and the things they say are so true..
Say Anything rocks my floppy flipadee socks!

to fellow friggin Columbans

Yeah, keep rollin'
Make me miss St. Co a whole lot more.
Take more pics. Take more vids.
Go a little crazier. Go a little wilder.
Here comes the editing.
Make it pretty.
Post them, post them.
I'm so begging for Miri !

♥ ♥ ♥

and the birthday girl wrote

First of all, THANK YOU MICHELLE! For that beautiful blog you wrote for me :D Who knew I could touch hearts like that. Oooh! I touched your heart. Get it? Touch? AHAHAHAHAHA! Oh yeah! Turn sixteen and a little hornier. Nice! (Wait till it's your turn, man)

And thank you SO much to everyone else for the Birthday wishes. Aleen, Fiqah, Helena, Far, Gurjit, Nadine, Peterson, Tio, Kara, Fera, Bethany, Abby, Jasmine, Qyira (whoa I can go all day!), Arantza. Now, this girl right here, she hadnt had enough of wishing me Happy Birthday on Facebook she had to text me too. Like my lezban; phone, facebook and blogspot! I love all you guys so much!

For the record, I didnt have a big, overrated sweet sixteen. One people would talk about for the rest of their lives. One people would tell their greatgrandkids about. One people would rate "Wayy greater than my wedding, dude". No, I didnt and I dont want that.

(My little cuzin just told me, "I'm shy to tell you happy birthday..." and giggles) Aww..

I got two birthdays this year! One was at Michelle's and I had a blast! The rocket kind of blast and also the happy kind of blast. Very yummy yum yum Choc Cookie Cake. Tell your dad I say thanks again! They surprised me. Good thing my nuts didnt jump out of my pants! Omg, there goes my secret...

When I heard Michelle and Pam screaming in the kitchen, I wanted to get in there and be a hero. I thought there was a Super Cicak or something. I could go talk to it and solve things. But no0o0o0o...Michelle told me Pam was naked in there. Yah, you really got me there! I really thought she was out of her clothes! Until you guys burst out of the kitchen and made me scream...

Today, I celebrated my sweet sixteen with the family. Had BBQ and cake! Ice cream cake! Now, this cake story is funny. Apparently, mom went running around making the lady at Taka Cake House bake me a Simpson cake. The lady doesnt know how any of the Simpsons look like. So, mom asked my bro to print out their pics and then I got this!

Mom: Look, Phoebe! See how much I love you.
Me: *opens box* Ahhhh! Hihihihihi!
Mom: *laughs at me*
Me: Now, what ever happened to Bart?

Lol! I was only kidding. Me liiiiiiike the cake!








Her head is miiiine!

proudest moment in my skating history (besides the first time I kicked right)

That Saturday when we were at Michelle's, I made her watch some skate vids. She was like, "That's so cool! Makes me wana skate too..."

Yesterday,
Nigarose: Yo, phoby. Whr do ya buy skateboards in kch?
Phobadog: Rupert Rage at Centre Point near Sarawak Plaza. Walk upstairs.
Nigarose: How do I pick out a skateboard? Like wht are the good ones?
Phobadog: I like Element. It's expensive tho. How bout you get a cheap one for try out
Nigarose: Orait. Thank you Phobadawg.

Duuuuude, she was mother serious about this! Whoooot! I've influenced my goat to skate :D

retards reunited

Aleen and Fiqah came over to Kuching for the hols. We went to Spring yesterday. Daryl, Ray's lil bro tagged along. The poor thing. He looked so (please type an adjective here) surrounded by loud, psychotic and retarded monkeys. But of course! We fed him and he got to eat lotsa things. He ate my worms, Fiqah's sotong (im not sure what u call that thing), Ray's sour tape anddd...I'm not sure what Aleen gave him. Probably nothing. Oh, that devilish monkey!

We were at Quicksilver. Aleen wanted to buy a new wallet. Fiqah helped her. Ray and I found the fitting rooms.

Ray: Come on, lets be vain.
Phoebe: Camwhore time!

We took some pics. Daryl was in the first 2 pics. And then! He went out and locked us in! That heavy thing was leaning against the door. Now, this is the part where you really hate yourself for being skinny.


But in the end he convinced us that we were being dellusional and he wasnt leaning against the door. I dont know how he got there so fast!

what's been down

Its not enough its not enough its not enough its not enough... I heart Shaant! He can do dramatic in style. Like Adam! Who0o0ot!

Oh! COPS!!! HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHA! Somebody's gona get busted! xD
This is so cool.

Darn, my black nail is screwed. Yah, mom painted my nails yesterday. And the one on my right middle finger is screwed. Now I cant give an awesome middle finger at people! Guhreat..

Hey, Nigarose, I want my pendrive. You better not throw it in Sungai Tasik Fishy cos I got Mr. Ma with me and we shall bomb your house tomorrow! Buahahahahahahaha!

No, we're not emo. We just look amazing in black B-)

Emo Art

Emo art fascinates me. You know how broken or shattered things are personified in pictures or drawings or icons. Like the word "Hope" hanging at the end of a broken string for example. I like that. Emonized and creative.

A few minutes ago, I took this picture and emonized it.











Just practicing emonization :D


Like my hand-modelling? ;)

Rocket Parrrrrty!

http://thesewordscankill.blogspot.com/
Michelle does a better job at explaining this, go to her blog and read it, okay, kids?
Yah! I am posting it, Michelle! Or Micheal, whatever your guy name is. Cant believe I was Adrian and I thought he was a real guy and Pam was upset that he had a girlfriend and I kept on singing dramatically, repeating his name. "AAAADRIIIIAN! Oh, Adrian! Adrian!"
So, the Rocket Party didnt exactly go as planned. Well, we didnt really plan much except, "Okay, so Michelle's driver is gona pick us up, we're gona have pizza before we do our rocket and then her driver is gona send us back to school..."

Yes, we did eat pizza and then we went to the pc room to check out some water rockets done by people from around the world and uh, lets just say we got distracted :D

Here are the many random and spastic things we did...
(I dont even know where to start!)

We must start with her drinking

Pose with the black billboard!

I'm the next best Power Ranger!

So amused by the faiyah !

Acting like the bitchy boss, are we?

Sara tryina 'pump' the flowers =/