I dont think you noticed

that you're on my mind every single day.
that I secretly spell your name out in the skies

I saw you today, only to feel invisible
Because I didnt think you noticed me
I dont think you noticed.

I've seen hearts scarred. They told the truth only to find bad news.
I can hold it in. The truth. But I'm scared to wait longer.
I dont want to tell and lose you a second later.
But I dont want to tell. Period.
At least not now.

Honestly, I still care about what people would think.
As much as I hate to admit it. I still do.
I've never been here. And I dont know much.

And I am way too scared of figuring out.

to fellow friggin Columbans

Yeah, keep rollin'
Make me miss St. Co a whole lot more.
Take more pics. Take more vids.
Go a little crazier. Go a little wilder.
Here comes the editing.
Make it pretty.
Post them, post them.
I'm so begging for Miri !

♥ ♥ ♥

autopilot.

but it's so hard when u keep acting like that. just stop it. arent we done with revenge? i thought we're even. i broke u and u break me. what do we do now? keep leading me on. but u're going on and off with her. i'm getting bored. maybe you're not who i should be waiting for. maybe you're just another one. another one of them. i'm bored. i dont wana care anymore. i dont care. let's just get back to life now. i left mine on autopilot. i wana start running it on my own.

high and hopeful (note: this was old)

i'm high and hopeful, knocking on your door, standing on my toes, hands in my pocket
when anxiety attacks.
i'm high and hopeful, wishing u would let me in. is she out of the picture? please tell me she is and end this crazy torture.
i'm high and hopeful. you're still playing it cool. it's funny i'm doing the same. would u be the first to give in?
i'm high and hopeful. this is driving me crazy. my head is spinning. round and round it went like a lollipop. i want one. would u get me one?

her little question

when she said it
you've been seeing somebody
i almost said cool
but it wasn't
so i didn't
cant lie and say it didn't hurt
it did
but i broke you before
now it's just your turn
i deserve this
i'm not mad
at least she got a taste
wonder if this second chance will bring anything
will you choose her over me?
don't tell me if it'll scratch
i'll make sure my curiosity don't overload
all you have to do is
i don't know..

you are one

you act like a saint in front of everybody
in their eyes you're the gorgeous thing
they don't know what you told me
they don't know what's inside of you
well, whats in there is ugly
yeah, get it right. ugly.
ridiculous.
in your head i'm in love with you.
in your head i want you.
bullshit.
just using it against you.
how does it feel?
in your heart you want me.
in your heart you tell yourself you could.
you're right, you could.
and now you cant.
it's so easy to pretend i wasn't the one who said it.
just like how easy it was for you.
say you don't know who you are.
say you're confused.
i'll show you. i'll lead the way.
you're fake.
you're not a saint.
not even close.
do you know what i hate?
two-faced dicks.
you are one.

your secret's out

don't put on that pathetic face
don't act like you're the victim
maybe to her you are
but to be honest, i think differently
you wanted her to break you
you wanted her to cheat
you wanted her to do wrong
but you still stand there
all of it only to paint one picture
just perfect to cover yourself
make everyone say you're virtuous
make everyone think you're vindicated
but can you vaunt without guilt?
remember the piece you made
with it you think you're adroid
as no one knew your secret
but i do
and i will show it to the world on a sixpence
watch me

take me away

My heart beats for you, no other man.
You died for me.
Who else would do that?
You are what I call love.
You are what I call the world.
You came to save me.
Now i would really live.
You're a saviour.
I promise, to live this life given to me.
I promise.
When my last breath leaves me,
I will run to you.
To be with you forever.
I love you.

witness her only weakness

he makes her icy heart melt.
never has it been.
she fell hard and he was ready to catch her.
his eyes are rays of bright lights, his face a beaming with glow.
no longer blind in a black hole, no more feeling lost in a dark soul.
her wounds are healed, her scars recover.
his arms holding her safe.
couldn't call him a saviour.
he's a striker in the team. Not a keeper.
he could catch any shot.
but willingly, make the ultimate goal for her.
could this be true?
or is it just a dream?
maybe he made it.
after all, she had always been dreaming her way through.
waiting to be told it's real.
this could only get better.
whisper silently.
don't wake her.

For Starters

ok, so lately ive been weirdly inspired to write things u call poems. lol. i guess that big fall got to me. my bum must have suffered a trauma. i was tripping over the stairs and laughed at myself, it popped question marks on everybody's face. anyways, the next and coming posts would be those things i came up with. enjoy!